None innocent

“No one is innocent after livinging life but not everyone is guilty of all” -Annonymous

When you see someone you should look up to hurt someone you care about its the worst and for it to happen more than once. Promised me that wouldn’t happen again but it did over and over. It still wouldn’t have happened again if we let him go. Would have saved us all so much pain and loss. But I suppress the memory so far back but it comes back to teach me to stand up for me and others. We are all only human we all have feelings we bleed when we fall down. We have people throwing knives towards our hearts, the words people put in our heads can make us crash and tumble but we all break down. Someone will build us up when we fall back down we think we bring everything with us. Theirs always something that doesn’t come down. Even though we may not be the most innocent person we also are the guilties. I believe that there aren’t good or bad people I think we are all good and bad. We have our moments were we are good, bad, innocent, and guilty. The real question is which one are you the most. All are still counted though. Just like every piece of the puzzle should count.

-A friend

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Memory

“I takes a hudge effort to free yourself from memory” -Paulo Coelho

When you watch something that you can never forget and it’s not good it stays there. My first memory as a child is the worst. People ask me why I hate easter normally I answer with its a cheesy thing. Even though that’s not the right answer that’s what I say not to feel the way I do sometimes when people really get to know me. Those looks people give you when they find out that something bad has happened to you is the worst. Sympathy looks to pierce the soul because the more you want to ignore what has happened. People that do know just bring it back even if they don’t know what they are doing. It can take just one look to break done a wall you’ve built for yourself. Everyday that’s my life. And it isn’t fun for me and anyone else that it happens too. Stand up or at least try.

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Trust or bust?

“You dont always need a plan. Sometimes you just have to BREATHE, TRUST, LET GO and see what happens” -Mandy hale

When you have this feeling of anger and you start to feel overextended, What do you do you let it out. So today that’s what I did to my best friend. Throughout everything going on I was overwhelmed and overextended. I haven’t talked to my father in 2 weeks and haven’t seen him for about over a month. When he left I thought it was gonna be a normal weekend yelling stuff being broken. Then him leaving and sleeping with other people. Somehow after all that I knew my mom would let him back after all this. But this time he didn’t he got a new girlfriend. Now they live together. For some reason, I don’t understand I miss him in a way. He was never a good father I don’t think he even deserved that title. But I gave it to him. Now that he says he wants back in my life I’m not sure. I don’t want to be hurt again I thought that was done when he left. I say throughout all the shitty stuff I’ve been through I could handle it all. Even though I say it I’m not sure it’s true we all have feelings even if we don’t want them… we have them. We can’t fight them even if we fight so hard. That feeling of being broken by someone you should trust with all of you. So what should I do…..

Trust or bust?

-A friend

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Changing our Beginings to Happy ends.

“People are scared to get close to anyone anymore, because everyone who promised they stayed, turned their back on her and walked away.” — Bryson Tiller

We live in a world of stereotypes and bullies. When all of this gets to us or breaks us we run to our own sanctuary. The thing that free’s us from all the chaos. Throughout it all, that’s what we have to look forward to. If we let that be the only thing. People say maybe life isn’t worth all the heart ace I use to say it too. But I’m not going to let the heart ace hurt me anymore. I won’t let the stereotypes people give me define me I will define them. The bullies that used to make me run and cry I won’t run anymore I will be proud of these things and be kind. So this is the new me I like it is free. I feel like me and I haven’t felt that in a long time.

-A friend

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